Dâm

Hôm qua anh bảo tôi là vợ anh dâm quá ..đi ra đường là cứ liếc qua liếc lại ..chẳng lẽ coi coi ai bự ai nhỏ sao ? ..

Tôi cười ..mấy ông liếc được thì mấy bà cũng liếc được chứ ? liếc thôi ..đâu có nhìn cái của quý đó đâu mà bảo người ta dâm ? ..anh..vậy thì chắc tưởng tượng rồi ..

Tôi chọc anh ..ừ ..tưởng tượng nó trắng nó đen ..nó bự nó tròn nó dai nó dẻo ..nó nằm trong em thì phải biết ..

Anh cứ lấy cớ vì tôi không những dâm còn hot nữa..không làm thịt chẳng lẽ để đó cho thằng khác làm ..gớm ..đúng là đàn ông.. thiệt tình ..làm như ra đường vợ ông là Victoria Secret model không bằng nên ai cũng muốn ? lol..

Intriguing..

I have gone back to chatting..old habit dies hard..not that there is any harm..I must admit I like to find out about people..and what makes them tick..

Thus begin my journey into the chat world..a bit different this time as it is an adult chat site ..

The site was originally a rating site that I discovered years ago for fun..lately it's been emailing me so I thought I would investigate..hmmmm interesting..

It is a meat market in there..what you do is have a look at the profiles you like and then you choose..the ones that you find engaging you ask for a chat..the person can accept or reject your request..simple? yes..not that I have ever requested a chat..most time it's the guys that request for it..

As for me half the time I don't reject because it feels bad..you know like you are already on there trying to find a partner and the rejections must be hard to take.. so I just let it stew..I don't reply either and hope they get the message..the profiles have symbols..the ones that's looking for love have little love hearts next to their names..lol.

The ones I find okie I accept..you know okie sort..looks okie..profile not too bad..problem is after you accept and find that they are annoying then it is too late..ehhehe have yet to discover a button to ban them..lol..

Out of all the guys I have chatted only one seemed intriguing..he's older..quieter? one of the more respectful ones that I can count on my fingers..2-3?..

the rest all I get is hello how are you..which positions do you like? ummm that's exaggerating a little bit but they all head down the same way..pretty disappointing considering I have put down on my profile that I am taken..not looking..lol..

Anyhow, let see where this will lead..a very big challenge to find chatters that can chat about normal every day events and not just xxxx..what did I expect..after all it is a meat market site..with hungry males wanting to eat..lol..

Bogged down

Feeling a bit bogged down today..one of those days that I have got heaps to do and not enough time to do it in..lol..

Turned up to work around 630am this morning to try to catch up thinking I'd finish by 9am ..nope..came home to have my second breakfast..blogging..will have a shower now and head back down to work..as have to dress properly since the shop is opened for business..another 1.5 to 2 hours to go?

Was hoping to finish early to go for a walk..walks tend to cheer me up.. and if I am right I won't make it out of work till lunch which means stuff the walk as it's raining..it usually takes me an hour to do the circuit x2 and around the block..still errands to run..and of all days I have to be back home by 330pm to do school pick up..lol..by the time I factor in the groceries..got 3 double digits kids..they are eating us out of our house..the cooking..washing..there goes my day..

That's how my days have gone lately..can't get anything done except the necessities..washing..groceries..cooking..and helping out at the business..

Since I came home from Geelong it feels like..him..the kids..the business...the house have swallowed me up..Miss V is no more other than a wife..mum..partner..housekeeper..I have ceased to exist..sad really..I don't recognise myself some day..just go through the motion of the day..slowly becoming invisible yet once again..lol.

Us..

Full of emotion today..my heart sang with joy this morning when I went into my email to find a reply to one of my poems..he's replied..who is he? he is a friend I met on chat..in one of the music rooms I frequented..he's a dear friend..

a while back he asked me would it make me sad if he ever married? I said yes..I want him to get married so someone can look after him for me ..but I would be sad...he replied then I don't think I want to get married ..because I don't want to make you sad..


I wondered why he closed his Multiply account..he never said..I tried to contact him with Skype and I'd left messages..still no contact until yesterday when he requested to be my friend on my opera. 

Tìm đâu một góc bên anh
Cho tôi gửi gấm một thân với hồn..

his reply..

Gửi rồi có lấy lại không ?
Nếu có lấy lại, trả gì cho em ?

Trả em một tấm thân tàn,

Hay trả nụ cười để giữ hồn em ???

my reply..
Tiếc chi một tấm thân tàn ?
Giữ chi một hồn cho chàng đã trao ? 

the poem meant..Searching for a place next to you to place my body and soul for safekeeping..

his reply..If you are to take it back I would return to you a weathered body or a smile in exchange for your soul? 

my reply..why should I regret a body that's old and frail?..why are you keeping my soul? when it has been freely given?

Going to dream sweet dreams tonight..for I have my old friend back with me..he always manages to cheer me up..

The Right Moment

Now that I am not working anymore..every time I want to buy something I can't buy like before..as for hubby he's always whinging about how much I spend..and how we don't have any money..lol..

Thus yesterday I took the opportunity to sneak out while he took his mum shopping to buy beds for our holiday house..not expensive ones..I chose good quality ones that was at a reasonable price..

Then last night I thought I'd come clean with him..baby I've bought the beds..he pulled his face to show me his disapproval..for he's told me time and time again that I couldn't buy them as they were expensive and that his brother and sisters have offered to put money together to buy them for us...

Anyhow I started reasoning with him before he could say anything else..first of all they costs a lot which I don't think it is right of us to expect your family to pay for them..second of all I'd bought them at a massive discount..and beds are personal..I want to sleep on nice beds..then I let out the secret..I'd been into the bank that morning and while making small talk with our teller I'd found out he's been in earlier during the day..she'd told me don't worry he's spending as well..as he's been in..hmmm thought he might like to know that I know he's been withdrawing money so it's not me that's spending..lol..

I knew he couldn't say anything for he'd spent the day with his mum instead of us..me and the kids..so in a way he was in a good mood..I'd also know the money he withdrew was for his mum..I haven't asked how much..so he'd be in a guilty mood..hence I knew he wouldn't get mad at me..for the last time I'd bought a big item he went on and on and on..worse than a nagging wife..lol..

Making Up..

This morning in bed...Mr H..I chose you because you are the sweetest ..the cutest..and the most CHALLENGING..you're like one of those prickly fruit that once you get through the prickly bits you get to eat the sweetest fruit around..don't know why I fell for him..may be this is why..he's one hell of a smooth talker..so we made up once again lol

And after reminding him.. he got me flowers..before that he asked me..why should I get you flowers? because it makes me feel special? after all it was our 19th anniversary..