Me and Him

I did not know how to make him understand..that it is not emotional..that it is purely physical..until one night..

I watched him as I'm sure he'd watched me..afterwards I sensed there was something different between us..instead of tearing us apart it has brought us closer..I sensed he understood at last..

I had gambled on our relationship and I'd won for now..

Our marriage started out traditional..it has twisted and turned..and now it is what it is..it's a marriage..not in the traditional sense..but it works..so why not? we still fight like any old married couple..that's probably as close as it gets..

Here We Go Again

Yes.. same old same old..we have reverted to being friends. Not sure how long this phase will last. Last time it only lasted weeks. It was great as we talked more, grew closer, then we actually believed it would work so back we went as man and wife. I'd missed the intimacy and so did he.

And you guessed it..same old same old. I think we treated each other better as friends, the sexual tension is there and sex was definitely better. Being friends he doesn't assert his sexual needs on me and in turn I don't resent him and thus more happy to surrender.

But somehow that is lost when we are man and wife.